I learned something today that upset me.  I know it shouldn't.  I know I should be far beyond it.  But I never had that lovely thing called closure with this person.  So I haven't been able to really dump the old anger, and I got a little refresher today.

I couldn't believe what I was being told, because it seemed so completely out of the realm of possibility.  I am too nice to say what it actually is; don't want to mess up this person's current life.  I have a nice new life now myself.  I don't really wish the person harm.  I just wish I could think of an explanation for what I was told.  It makes my head spin. 

I don't like not having answers.

And so until someone finds out or lets me know, I'll have a big, big question.  And when someday I run into this person on the street, because of course that will happen even though we live hundreds of miles apart, maybe I'll ask.  I'm pretty sure I know the answer, and that it leaves the situation all the more confusing.

And then I ask myself, did I ever really know this person?  I hope I did.  I loved this person.